Day one after diagnosis, letting it sink in that our son has autism. I’m not dumb, maybe just in denial these last couple years that he was behind. I’ve been able to rationalize it though, that it was the pandemic that caused it. He hasn’t gone to daycare, we rarely go to the grocery store, he didn’t go to a restaurant to eat until he was well after the age of 2 and still has only been a handful of times. So maybe his delay is just temporary? Maybe he just needs to socialize more? Then the evaluations began and the paperwork was sent to fill out. All I know is that filling out paperwork and having to mark “never” on every question rating your child’s ability to communicate, socialize or perform activities of daily living, is heart wrenching and I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. My mama heart aches to see on paper how far behind my baby boy is and you can’t help but ask yourself, “is this my fault?”
Caring for Cameron 